It has been a while since I wrote in this blog. I think now is a good time because I have noticed, that for the most part this blog has remained to have a rather positive on going theme. I am feeling a lot better. I went to a counseling session and am to make appointments for the future. Being able to talk about how I am truly feeling without having someone place judgement upon me is simply freeing and spectacular. I look forward to further progress and will try and keep this blog more up to date.
I was truly wanting to leave this place at semester because I was completely unsatisfied here and felt unchallenged. I still feel that way somewhat but I am trying harder and I am going to make the effort to be a stronger, well rounded, student, and individual.
I think the biggest challenge for someone my age is finding myself, and especially doing it without making myself the central focus. I am looking forward to find what effects I have on the world and how everything else is affected by me.
Along with the longing to leave this place I felt that the opportunities would only grow for me if I did. If that makes any since...? Basically my belief is that if I leave at this semester and go to school in my hometown I will only make and save money. I will also learn how to drive again, since it has been several years since I have even really attempted to drive a vehicle.
*save and make money
*learn to drive
*allows for better closure
*take math and science at a easier pace.
Disadvantages to going to SBU are as followed:
*not exactly the freedom I might desire
*might be lonely
*readjustments must be made
I believe that the advantages out way heavily the disadvantages, still I am not exactly sure which I actually want. I am traveling home this weekend and hopefully can gain good advice from much wiser individuals than I.
Also such wonderful news I must post is the new leaf I have turned over.
I pledge to myself all of the following to allow myself to be completely cleansed.
*no going out unless homework/studying is done
*clean my room
*go to be before 2 am
*eat when hungry
*study the bible